life changes - a grumpy afternoon

I gained weight! Four kilos in 15 months. I hate my weight today. And my tummy,... oh! I hate it.

People do change when they are married. Sometime we have to do what we never did, and not do what we used to do. I used to go to the salon for hair treatment or to my favourite women-only spa for body treatment, almost every weekend (when there is no wedding invitation or family party) before I get married. Now every weekend I simply cannot go to a salon because my husband will be waiting for too long. (I need more time to finish my hair treatment. Men - with their short hair - only need a few minutes.) I also have a new weekend "ritual", that is accompany my husband visiting my parents in law who live far outside the city, and spend a night there. When we're there we simply don't go anywhere because it's just too far...

So I see that the "best" time I have is in weekdays. But I go to work, so it should be after work. But the traffic is too bad! It is getting worse and worse each year. And I'm not the only one who sees it. Lately after work I think about getting home ASAP.

Except for my yoga class. It feels good and is so relaxing. So far I manage to attend it. がんばってる。I have to fight the bad fat. And fatigue.

Riding home from work is tiring enough because traffic jam is something common in this f#&$^@! city. It takes at least 1 hour, whereas without traffic jam it should only take 30 minutes.

I should be going now.

My appetite

I have an up-and-down eating appetite. Nothing is really causing it. It just happens. For some period of time my appetite is good, or too good.. then for some other it's just bad or "oh so bad"... When it's bad actually I like it, because I feel light, and of course my body gets thin - but still healthy! \(^o^)/ いつも元気だ！Like those days when I was getting married... but it's becauase I was stressed (hahaha...!!!), and I was not healthy then - I got ill.

This week my appetite is bad, I mean it's good... I always want to eat. This morning I had a big meal (fried rice + corned beef + omelette + potato cake), and at lunch I ate another big meal (rice with fried chicken). My stomach felt full but I did finish the food. Then this afternoon I ate my chocolate bar. Arrrgh... it's not good!

I miss my bad appetite (~_~)... I feel better on those days. My stomach doesn't feel full and my body feels lighter... my pants are not too tight then, hehehe... and I feel more spirit to do physical activities - exercise! Yea~!! Now actually I'm eager thinking about my yoga class tomorrow, but I might not be going because... 整理だ。 BTW I think yoga fit busy people. It's refreshing and relaxing after working the whole day. And it makes me sleep better. But I'm also going to do some aerobic again later - I hope this one will be better than my last one (lagunya norak 'n instrukturnya asik ama dirinya sendiri)...

Back to the topic... Tomorrow I must try not to eat too much. I'm a bit mad at myself when I eat too much (in my standard). My stomach is easily full. But appetite blinds you - that damn thing. がんばって！　(^0^)/